Ok, I realize that sometimes I'm way too flippant or whatever. And the truth is that I want to be taken seriously. But then I post silly stuff about Sophocles. I mean, I should take Oedipus and his problems seriously, right? Isn't that who I'm supposed to be.

I don't want to be like the dumb-dumb sterotype. And sometimes at work I feel like because I'm youngish and I probably look younger than I really am (last semester one student says, "so you're like 23, right, Drennan?"). In case anyone is wondering, I am 30, nearly 31. But I don't want to be so silly all the time. I mean, silly is Ok for some things. But really, I do have ideas, and I do care passionately about things, and I am committed to my work and to what I believe and to the people with whom I come into contact.

So why doesn't anyone seem to see this about me? Why am I just silly Drennan? Is it because of all the hair-color accidents I've had? Is it because I don't take myself seriously enough?

I work so hard, and I care so much. And I want to be more than the professor who makes jokes about Oedipus, because I am more than that.