Miscellaneous

Ok, so I have about 10 minutes before I have to go to a meeting (ick!), and all I really want to do is write. I just got out of a yoga class--today's the first day of a 5-week class. I feel so much better than I did when I got up this morning. This should be a lesson to me.

So I've been thinking about style and my brother and what C. said. And I think really, that I should just dress the way I want to, provided that I don't wear marginally offensive tee shirts to work. For example, you know the one I have that says "Dorks are hot"? Well, not appropriate for work. But really, I mean, I can wear knee socks and fun colors, right? And I can wear all black with very purple lipstick, right? Or Hello Kitty tees. Hey, my students say that they like it when I dress like one of them. I mean really, why can't my uniform be a fun tee shirt, a denim skirt, colored tights, and then just to professional it up a little, a stylish jacket? What's wrong with that? I've toned it down some--my hair is a color that theoretically could be someone's natural color. I don't know. I just want to feel like I'm interesting looking. I don't even go for cute / pretty / attractive anymore; I gave up on that long ago. I strive for interesting. Lately, I just feel like I'm getting more and more boring, as far as my appearance goes, and I don't want that.

So the therapist I fired in October would say that I'm just focusing on the wrong things and trying to get attention for the wrong reasons. But I still maintain that's a gross misjudgment of my character. She actually told me that I needed to get new friends, friends who would apprecaite me for reasons other than my appearance. But I just don't think it's true.