The Contemporary Freak Show

For some reason, I've always been interested in the "old school," P.T. Barnum-style side show.  In fact, I really like the term "freak show," probably because I've always been morbidly fascinated by the 1930s film Freaks, which you, dear reader, should see if you've not already.  But for better or worse, in our society, we seem to have decided that the freak show is no longer socially acceptable.  And I do think this cultural movement is for the better:  I cannot really at all justify the all-too-human tendancy to objectify and gawk at the disabled.  And this is what the freak show (as opposed to the "geeks" in the sideshow) is really about.

Lately, I've found myself watching the Discovery Channel and its sister channels Discovery Health and The Learning Channel a little too frequently.  The line-up includes such favorites as Jon and Kate Plus Eight and 17 Kids and Counting, which  are interesting and seemingly-benign looks at families which by society's standards are extraordinarily large.  But Little People, Big World, often follows Jon and Kate.  LPBW follows the Roloff (spelling?) family, composed of two LP parents and their four children, only one of whom is a LP, or little person.  In many ways, they are an average family, but isn't the whole selling point of the program that, at least in height, they are not at all average?  I mean, don't we watch it as our great-grandparents might have gone to the freak show?  In the end, the Roloffs do live much like an average, upper middle class family, however, and I don't think that we as viewers tune in just to gawk, although that's certainly part of the attraction.  We might say some of the same things about the Style network's Ruby, which follows a morbidly obese woman as she both attempts to lose weight and negotiate a world not really suited to her current body.  And on the one hand, the program is interesting in that rather than encouraging us to objectify Ruby, we are encouraged her to see her as fully human, with the struggles and emotions just like all the rest of us.  And yet, she's only notable because she's the "fat lady."

I am much more concerned about an entirely different set of programs I've recently seen advertised as part of the Discovery / TLC lineup.  Most of these seem to be one or two time "specials," as opposed to entire series, and even their titles are evocative of Barnum's side show, titles like Treeman and Mermaid Girl.  In both cases, we are invited to gawk at people with conditions that lead to horrible disfigurement.  I only saw a small portion of each of these, but it seems like the majority of each hour-long program is devoted to exploring the medical aspects--the various approaches to possible "cures," each individual's life-expectancy, how the condition has developed over time--of both individuals.  But really, I don't see how this is much different from the early-twentieth century side show.  We, as viewers, are still pointing and staring because of the disability.  We may or may not feel some compassion, but compassion does not seem to be what motivates us to watch.  And clearly, I'm not necessarily pointing the proverbial finger at all of you as viewers; I've watched too.  I've seen various specials on types of dwarfism and how the individual is affected, the specials about conjoined twins, and notably the recent spectacle of the Indian girl with either six or eight arms (apparently, she's considered by some to be an incarnation of a particular deity.)  I have to admit that I think documentaries about transsexuals are especially interesting.  But the selling point, the attraction of each of this is that each is about a "freak," about someone who is not like the mainstream because of a pathology, a malady, a disability.  We see these conditions as something to be corrected, and we treat these inidividuals as objects or stand-ins, not as inidivudals.  I'm sure that Treeman and Mermaid Girl have actual names, but we're willing to reduce them to interesting and notable and valuable as nothing more than their freakishness.

But my question is this:  are many of these programs different from the 1930s freak show?  The medium is different in that instead of carnival barkers encouraging us to pay and extra nickel and step inside a tent, we simply flip to a particular channel on Sunday night.  But aren't our motivations the same?  Don't we tune in to see the physical deformities?  to marvel at the freaks?  to point and stare and feel both pity and terror?  Isn't this the same as the now out-of -fashion freak show?

Five Other Lives

So it's been snowing for the last 48 hours or so, and I'm feeling pretty much over it.  Does anyone know the Jimmy Bufet song about "I wanna go where it's warm?"  There's a line in there about having cabin fever--I can related to that right now.  But that wasn't my intended topic when I started this post.  In The Artist's Way, Julia Cameron has an exercise in which she asks us to list what we'd do or be if we had five alternate lives.  And that's been on my mind lately:  What would I do if I weren't busy being an English professor?  First, I'd definitely at least consider being a makeup artist.  Really.  It would be fun to design makeup for stage, wouldn't it?  I'd also be a writer:  there's so much I'd like to write about, including reviews of all kinds of stuff.  And yes, writing reviews is real writing.  Third, I'd design and sew stuff.  Fourth, I'd be an attorney.  I think that copyright and intellectual property law would be super interesting.  I don't so much see myself as a trial lawyer, more someone who'd work for a big corporation.  On a related note, I'm interested in "open source" issues lately, especially as related to crafting and such.  Fifth, I'd make my living making and crafting stuff.  Ok, that was vague, but there are so many things I'd like to do in that area.  This exercise--listing one's alternate career ambitions--seems important to me because it seems to say a lot about how I'd really, really like to be spending my time, you know?  And I am so not ready to quit my job--that's not the point at all.  I am, for the most part, quite satisfied with my job (I'm even getting over my general irritation with my students!), but I always feel like I want to spend more time doing some of these other things.  I want to sew and cook and craft more.  I want to write more for a general audience.  I'm even considering starting a new blog for makeup tutorials and reviews.  And although YouTube is absolutely FULL of makeup tutorials, it feels like something I might want to do just  because it would be fun, not because we need yet another lesson in creating the perfect smokey eye.  These things interest me and bring me a sense of creative fulfilment.  As I move towards 2009, I want to think about how I want to spend my time outside of work, about what I really enjoy. 

New Moon

Yesterday, I finished New Moon the sequel to Stephenie Meyer's Twilight.  And I think that the best I can say for it is it's really kinda uninteresting.  I mean, it's like Bella is all torn:  should she be true to Edward, or should she move on to Jacob, who is not terribly interesting, as a character, but is certainly more age appropriate as a boyfriend.  And that's about all there is to it.  I have to admit that I enjoy a good YA high school-romancy novel; I'm all for that.  And, at least so far, that's about all that Meyer's Twilight Saga is.  The vampire / supernatural / pseudomythical stuff reads like a veneer and nothing more.  And as YA romance, it's OK, not great but OK.  But I really can't see that it's anything more.  And really, silly YA romance novels are A-OK.  But why are we pretending that this is something more profound?  I don't get it.  Interestingly, there are moments where the novel could become something more.  Bella, for example, faces several moral delimmas--her values come into conflict, and it starts to look like she's forced to make an ethically complicated, difficult decision.  But in the end, she doesn't really agonize over these decisions; they come easily.  And she often doesn't have to make these difficult decisions--the plot somehow intervenes and makes them for her.  And I have to say that there's nothing especially interesting (and certainly nothing sexy, IMO) about the Byronic, brooding vampire, caught between his bloodsucking nature and his revulsion over this nature.  This is somehow so passe.  I want to say, "Dude, you are a vampire.  Deal with it."  I guess that this conflict, again, could allow for something more profound to happen in this work, but Meyer never really commits to "going there" and dealing with difficult questions.  And still, noone seems interested in the fact that, at the end of it all, Edward is basically very controlling and even manipulative when it comes to Bella  Given current statistics pertaining to relationship violence, especially among teens, isn't this about the last thing our society needs?  I mean, here we are, encouraged to really romanticize the relationship between the 17-year-old female mortal and her 110-year-old vampire lover, when it's just a repackaging of the same old controlling boyfriend.

So Over It

Ok, as I'm midway through the final week of the semester, I have to just say that I am so over it.  I'm ready to be done.  I'm tired of reading bad, incoherent essays.  I'm tired of acting supportive.  I'm just tired.  I'm feeling really kinda worthless these last few days, and it's like I have nothing left to give to my job.  And although I know it's totally normal for me to feel this way at the end of a semester, it still really sucks.  I mean, I don't have any semblence of patience or tolerance left--I guess that I'm just descending to short-tempered and snippy, with students particularly.  And while I hate feeling that way, there's also part of me that feels like saying to the students, "Hey, you deserve this.  You've turned in crap work all semester, and now it's catching up with you.  You have consistently ignored instructions on assignments and have refused to meet with me all the times I required individual conferences.  I had those conferences so that I could gently discuss the problems you've been having in class in time for you to change and somehow redeem your grade.  But you blew it off, and now it's too late."  I mean, that's life, right?  It's not so much that I hate to be the bad guy; it's more that I hate dealing with all the crap students can sometimes give when their grades turn out to be lower than they'd hoped.  And really, it always astounds me when a student has earned, say, Cs and Ds on every assignemnt and then acts shocked when he gets a D+ for his grade in the class.  That kills me.  Often, they send not just whiney but downright threatening e-mails:  "If we can't resolve this, I'll be forced to go to the dean."  And I always think, "Be my guest.  I'm over dealing with you, and the dean is not going to magically change your grade just because you think she should."  I guess that all the bad essays are bringing me down.  It's like once finals week rolls around, I'm the Grinch or something.

Thursday Thirteen: Thirteen Things I Am Sooooooooooo Over

13.  Sex and the City

12.  Panic attacks


11.  Grey's Anatomy

10. Students who don't bother to purchase the required books for their classes

9.  Students who don't bother to read the assigned reading in their classes

8.  Students who e-mail at 11:30pm the night before an assignment is due and request that I respond ASAP

7.  New England winters

6.  Students who open emails with "Hey"

5.  Lindsay Lohan

4.  Lame-ass excuses

3.  Emails written without caps or punctuation

2.  Students who don't follow directions

1.  Sarah Palin

I Heart Umberto

So here's my self-depricating preface:  I realize that claiming I just LOVE Umberto Eco is silly, at best.  However, I consider this progress of a sort.  I mean, I used to claim I was "in love" with Inspector Morse, and he's a fictional character.  Eco (or "Umberto" to his closer associates) is, at least, a real person.  And he's brilliant and wonderful and exactly the sort of academic I want to be.

So why, you may ask, do I love Umberto?  What makes him so great?  Hmm. . .where to begin. . .I love that he, of course, knows all about canonical literature, but he can connect it to pop culture in wonderful, insightful ways.  So one minute he's talking about Dante, and the next he's talking about Superman.  Superman seems to come up a lot, actually.  But I love that Eco realizes that elements of popular culture move us and inform us in the ways that serious literature can.

I love that Eco can talk about how language and literature work in this academic, informed way.  But he can so easily switch registers and explain why literature is powerful for the average reader.  Even more basically, I love that he acknowledges that language and literature are powerful, that they can move us on a level that transcends the literal and the logical.  I love that Eco recognizes the tension and balance between the openendedness of texts and the limited possibilities of interpretation.  But it seems to me that all the while, he allows that meaning does, in fact, exist and that it's not completely relative.  Eco realizes, of course, that ultimately words matter.  And he reminds us that texts and how we read them and even whether we read them--all these matter too.

But here's where I get silly.  I often wonder, "What would Eco think?"  This seems to be becoming my personal mantra for how I think about texts.  It's a reworking of the WWJD.  (Side note:  I REALLY want a tee shirt that says, "What Would Gandalf Do?" but that's another post).  And when I watch Lost or listen to Joni Mitchell's "River" until I cry or read Dickens, I have this fantasy about discussing it with Eco.  In my fantasy, we drink beer.  Does he drink beer, I wonder?  And he explains that Lost is powerful precisely because of the ways it taps into other texts we always already know.  And I tell my favorite episode from the Thursday Next series--the one where Hamlet, in the midst of identity crisis, is thrilled to discover that Mel Gibson plays Hamlet.  Hamlet, you see, LOVES Leathel Weapon.  And this is funny to me but powerful in a way that Eco could explain.  In "On Literature," Eco tells us that literature has an "intangible power," and so we understand why Hamlet, identity crisis and all, moves us.  Over beer, Eco also explains to me all kinds of grand stuff about the Middle Ages.  This part of the fantasy is probably a rehashing of his "Ten Little Middle Ages."  And at some point, I tell him that Foucault's Pendulum is kick ass.  And after enough beer, we talk about Salman Rushdie.  This is my perfect fantasy.  *sigh*  And so I guess that I'm "out."  I'm positively in love with Umberto Eco, dispite the fact that he doesn't know that I exist.  But hey, a girl can dream.

So I woke up feeling kinda indefineably out of sorts this morning.  I think that I am not going to "do" Christmas decorations this year; it just feels like I don't need to hassle.  I'm feeling like a fat blob the last couple of days, which is probably just about eating too much. I guess I'm just feeling down on myself, like I never quite do all the things that I think I should do or need to do or whatever.  And maybe I am just kinda lonely, in spite of being surrounded by such wonderful people at work each day.  I don't know.  I need some good reading material.  I'm just feeling really unmotivated.  Really.  I can't seem to work up the motivation to do much of anything this morning.  And there's not necessarily any thing wrong with that, right?  I mean, it's fine to spend a Saturday relaxing.  But I won't.  If I'm not careful I'll end up this restless, unmotivated, listless, anxious mess, and that's what I really want to avoid.  If only my fairy godmother would show up with a bagel or a cinnamon roll, I'm sure it would help.  At least I have the doglets, and they are cheerful and affectionate.  Ok, I am going to make a pot of tea and see about finding a book to read.  Maybe.

Thursday Thirteen: The Day After

It's Friday, so this is a rather belated T13.  But on this, the day after Thanksgiving, I wanted to do another list of thankfuls.

1.  I'm thankful that I spent yesterday with such dear friends.

2.  Oh, and the food was delightful.

3.  I'm thankful to have had apple pie for breakfast this morning.

4.  I'm thankful to be sitting inside watching the snow come down.

5.  I'm thankful for the pellet stove that keeps me nice and warm while I'm inside watching the snow come down.

6.  I'm thankful for novels by Diana Wynne Jones.  Today I'm reading one titled _The Lives of Christopher Chant_.

7.  I am, of course, thankful for the dogs.

8.  I'm thankful that I enjoy cooking.  Pasta's on the menu for tonight.

9.  I'm thankful for bubble baths.

10.  I am thankful that I enjoy sewing and crafting, although I've not been devoting much time to these lately.

11.  I am thankful to have a job that I enjoy most of the time.

12.  I am thankful for this blog, silly as it may sound.

13.  I am thankful for all of you!

I've Been Bitten

Ok, I finally broke down and purchased a copy of Meyer's Twilight.  First, I should say that I read it quickly over one weekend.  This illustrates that it is entertaining enough.  It's a quick read, and although there wasn't all that much suspense, I felt like I wanted to keep reading.  In spite of all that, I have to say that I don't get what all the hype is about.   A couple of my students informed me that it's really "deep" and "profound," unlike much YA fiction that simply deals with high school boy-girl relationships.  But that's just not the case.  I mean, Twilight seemed to me like more of the same--the melodramatic, angst filled, fraught 17-year-old relationship, with a vampire thrown into the mix.  But the vampire angle felt almost arbitrary (should I say "random"?).  But seriously, I found the book troubling in ways that have nothing to do with vampires.  What I think bothered me most is that the book, of course, is set up such that we, the readers, want Bella and Edward to be together.  And you know--this is fine, I guess.  Whatever.  I mean, it's like Harlequin for teens, but fine.  But Edward is so controlling of Bella.  And he really doesn't allow her to assert her opinions.  And when he wants something that she doesn't, he just kinda forces her.  I am NOT referring to sex (although the book was more sexually suggestive than I expected).  It's like Edward wants to go for a walk; Bella says no; he just throws her over his shoulder and carries her off.  And Bella, who is also our narrator, doesn't seem to see that this is a problem.  Nor does our author seem to see it.  And that's kinda what bothers me.  I don't expect Bella to be especially perceptive or mature.  She is, after all, 17.  But the writing seems to lack depth.  Meyer doesn't encourage us to perceive the world with more maturity than Bella does.  And this is troubling, in part, but it mostly marks the work as superficial and not terribly literary.  There's just not a lot of substance there.

I will spare you any sort of rant about the film.  I've not seen it and probably won't.  I have nothing against the film, per se.  I do, however, wonder about the mothers who allow their 10 year olds to mob the poor actor who plays Edward, as they scratch their necks in hopes of drawing blood.  Of course, this is no reflection on the film or the actor, but it's just kinda creepy.

Thankful Thirteen

In light of my recent insomnia / general feeling of malaise / horror over the state of humanity, a Thursday Thirteen seems in order, one that helps put things in perspective, or at least balance out the ickiness.  So, although Thanksgiving is a week away, I'm embarking on a Thankful 13, inspired by this list from my BFF's blog.

1.  The dogs.  Yes, I'm daily, even hourly thankful for Guinnie, Polly, and Fenway and even Gollum who is no longer with us.  I really feel like there's so much we can learn from our pets.  Fenway wakes up each morning, blinks his sleepy eyes at me, then accepts a kiss and expects to have a good day.  Each day, it's like he expects good things to happen in his life.  And he's happy because he has such a happy attitude.

2.  My kitchen.  It's not large, and it's not fancy, but it's mine.  And I love spending time in it.

3.  Family, especially brothers, neices, sister-in-law, and cousins.  Thanksgiving time makes me think of them all.

4.  Crafty projects.  I just had a brilliant refashion idea--watch for more in the coming weeks!

5.  Words, words, words.  Aren't they simply magical?  I am especially thankful for books, of course.  I'm tempted to order the entire Twilight saga, by the way, for holiday reading.  I feel like I can't resist for much longer!

6.  DVDs.  I really love Netflix.  I do!  I'm especially fond of all the TV series that are available, with british stuff being my very fav.

7.  Journals.  I love writing in my journals, and yes, I keep more than one.  I mean, I need several different notebooks for different parts of my life.  This makes sense, right?

8.  My vehicle.  I have a 1998 Ford Explorer.  I plan to drive it until it's a "death trap."  And then I plan to purchase another Explorer.

9.  Pie.  This time of year, my thoughts turn to pie.  *sigh*  I'm craving apple just now.

10.  Taco Bell.  Requires no explanation.

11.  My job.  First, I get to teach super fun stuff.  Second, I have super fab colleagues.

12.  Fabric, textiles, fibers!  What could be finer?

13.  Simply being alive!

Ah, this feels like a truly joyful T13--just what I needed!

I'm not sure how much more I can take.  I've had this serious bout of insomnia the last four or five nights.  Sleep deprivation seriously like demolishes me.  It's like any capacity for enjoyment or even concentration is just gone.  Monday evening, I decided I'd try to get to bed early, and as I was getting ready for bed, I realized that my alarm clock wasn't working properly.  I thought, "No problemo--I'll just use the alarm on my cell."  But I couldn't get that to work either.  I wanted to get up at 5:00 (ish) the next morning and couldn't figure out what to do.  When sleep deprived, I tend to blow things out of proportion.  Oh wait, I do that anyway.  Finally, I reconciled myself to coping with no alarm--this was only after a somewhat frantic phone call to my father.  Rationally, he suggested that I get in the car and go buy a clock.  Of course, I promptly disregarded this perfectly reasonable solution.  My mom talked me into it though.  My trip to Walgreen's ended in tears--the prospect of shopping for an alarm clock was just too overwhelming.  Anyhow, at the time this all seemed of monumental proportions.  This was, at least in part, a result of sleep deprivation; of that I'm certain.

But then, Tuesday morning, on the way to work, I found out that a coworker had been murdered several days before.  Kinda makes alarm-clock-gate seem pretty minor, right?  I mean, I don't know how one is supposed to respond to this kind of thing.  I'm shocked and horrified and saddened and angry and afraid.  And I didn't know her well at all.  But still.  Needless to say, I didn't sleep again last night.  It's all oddly surreal, you know?  FIY:  Her boyfriend has been charged with her murder and is scheduled to be arraigned today. 

All I Want for Christmas Is. . .

Ok, although it's Friday, I'm going to do a better-late-than-never Thursday Thirteen. I mean, I'm only one day late, right? So, yesterday, I was browsing Blu-Ray (spelling?) players online. And it got me thinking about Christmas gifts. If money were no object, what would I buy myself for Christmas? Here's a list of thirteen potential Christmas gifts I'd love to give myself.

1. A tattoo. I'd really like a Celtic trinity knot between my shoulder blades. It might look something like this.  Or maybe like this. 

2.  MAC eyeshadow.  Again, this is representative of my basic vanity, but I adore MAC eyeshadows lately.  However, much less expensive and of similar quality are the eyeshadow palettes from Coastal Scents. 

3.  This Judith Ripka bracelet.

4.  A Kitchen Aid stand mixer, preferably in pink!

5.  A LCD television.

6.  A Nintendo Wii.  Seriously.

7.  And while I'm at it, how about a Nintendo DS.  You know, I think I need to be working on the brain age and Zen "games" that they offer now.

8.  A nose stud.  As many of you know, I've had my nose pierced in the past.  And I really, really loved it.  In fact, I cannot remember why I got rid of it.  And I'm feeling so frumpy looking lately that a new piercing seems in order!

9.  A fresh coat (or two) of paint in my bedroom.  I've been meaning to do this since I moved two and one-half year ago.  Again, I think pink is in order here.

10.  "G" from the Harajuku Lovers line of perfume.  Isn't the packaging too cute?

11.  A serger machine.

12.  A trip to Kripalu for a Yoga retreat.

13.  A big shopping spree at J. Crew.


So OK, I realize that talking about gifts to myself really misses the entire point of Christmas--I get that. Still, it's fun to dream.  And this is like an "in my dreams" kind of wish list; with the possible exceptions of a tatoo, a nose stud, and new paint in the bedroom, I don't anticipate that any of these is likely to happen any time soon.  Still.  A girl can dream, right?

Morning Joe Drops the "F Bomb" on Live TV!

Did anyone else hear this this morning? Joe says the F-word and seems oblivious. When Mika calls him on it, he reverts to the "ambien and vodka" routine.

Ok, I know it's silly, but I really, really love this video

Fenway and the Stairs

Maybe if I can get my act together, technologically speaking, I can post a video.  When Fenway first came to live with me, he was only 8 weeks old and was too little to go up or down stairs.  The design of my house is such that going outside requires using the stairs--a whole flight of them, not just one or two.  Anyway, at first, he was tiny, and I didn't mind carrying him down and back up stairs when we needed to go out.  Mind you, we take several potty breaks a day, so that's several trips down and back up the stairs.  Initially, I was a little worried that baby Fenny might fall down the stairs and would feel anxious if he was too near the staircase.  However, I had little to worry about.  Fenway seems to have a phobia about the stairs.  Very quickly, he did learn to go up the stairs.  When we'd come back in from outside, he'd run right up, even when he was still pretty little.  Now, nearly 9 months and 20 pounds later, Fenway is still unable to go down stairs.  Seriously.  And maybe "unable" is the wrong word.  I mean, if I pick him up and put him down four or five steps from the bottom, he can go the rest of the way down.  But he thinks that he can't.  When it's time to go out, I still have to carry him down the stairs.  (Side note:  when it's time to go out, he thinks it's really fun to play keep away from mom.)  And it's kinda pathetic, really.  I mean, he clearly wants to go down the stairs sometimes but thinks that he can't.  And he'll stand at the top and cry if, say, his ball has rolled down the stairs.  I've tried everything I can think of.  I've even put a snack on each stair thinking that surely he'd be willing to give it a try for a snack!  But he wouldn't.  It's almost like a dog who has been abused and then avoids the object used to beat him; however, I seriously doubt that anyone pushed Fenny down the stairs when he was a baby.  When my parents were both here a month or so ago, all three of us stood on the stairs and the landing and called to Fenway, trying to coax him into at least trying it.  But he wouldn't.  He acted a little upset because he clearly wanted to be with the humans, but the stairs were too big an obstacle.  So he just stands at the top and looks crushed, like he's been abandoned and is just waiting for his Mama to return.  And it's not really that he can't do stairs; he just thinks he can't do stairs.  It was a little funny when he was little, but he's now close to 25 pounds.  And at 5:00am, carrying him down stairs is about the last thing I want to be doing.  On the bright side, it does provide an opportunity for hugs and "snorty kisses."

Joni and Joan

I've been listening to Joni Mitchell all weekend. And rule #1 is that one shouldn't listen to Joni if one is feeling depressed. However, I'm feeling pretty OK, even after Joni, so that's a good sign. But all weekend, I've felt like I should be reading Joan Didion while I listen to Joni. Apparently, my copy of The White Album, which is such a wonderful collection of essays, is in my office at work. This is sorta too bad, because I'm craving Joan. The opening to the first essay in The White Album is, "We tell ourselves stories in order to live." And this quote, this idea is something that I think about frequently. Didion (or can I call her by her first name?) seems to understand that narrative is a way to find meaning in the seeming-meaninglessness of our lives. And this is true on so many levels. I remember my mother saying, more than once, that when something really painful has happened, she maybe doesn't want to have to tell people, but that with each successive telling the telling becomes easier and the trauma, itself, becomes easier to cope with. But Didion also knows that when we create these narratives, we are forced to find patters and to select details and to create order. Narrative requires order, and maybe this is a way to create order in our lives. But even more importantly, it strikes me that salvation is to be found in story. We take comfort from the stories of others. Barack Obama is compelling, at least in part, because his story is interesting; it's a story of what it means to overcome. And even more importantly, the Gospel is story. It's a narrative. And Christ's teachings, say the Sermon on the Mount, is embedded in story. The story, the narrative creates a context for understanding. Some have called this narrative the greatest story ever told. C.S. Lewis speaks often of the strength of "story" as a particular genre. And while Didion may not see power and salvation in the story of the New Testament (or maybe she does), it seems that story, narrative matters. We create stories; we listen to the stories of others; we retell stories we already know. And these stories move us and change us and save us. I think that Joni Mitchell knows this too. And I wonder if Joni and Joan know one another. I'm certain that they know of one another, but that's not the same thing. And I wonder what they would say to one another over a cup of coffee. Joni tells us that "something's lost but something's gained in living every day," and this is both sad and hopeful, I think. And telling stories about the losses and gains gives us a way to understand them and ultimately a way to live.

A Dress to Die For. . .

Ok, this dress is on clearance at J Crew. And even on clearance, I can't afford it. And besides, I've taken the pledge, not to purchase new clothes. But I really, really LOVE this dress. The style is great, and the purple is super fab. So I'm thinking I could probably make something comparable, no?

Thursday Thirteen: Thirteen Movies I've Never Seen But Feel Like I Should

Ok, so on the way to work, I got thinking about all the classic or brilliant or wonderful films I've never seen. I'm embarrassed to admit some of these. But you have it: Movies I think I should know about but have never seen (or have only seen portions of). Let's see if I can make it to thirteen.

1. Thelma and Louise. I've seen parts of this one, notably the end. And I feel like I know why it's supposed to be significant or whatever (and I don't think it's Brad Pitt that makes it important), but I've never seen the whole thing.

2. Butch Cassidy and the Sundance Kid. Now that I think about it, is Thelma and Louise a sort of reworking of this one? Again, I've seen the end but haven't see the movie in its entirity.

3. The Austin Powers movies. I've never seen any of them (are there three?), and in this case, I think I'm OK with not having seen them.

4. Close Encounters. Yeah, I've just never gotten around to this one.

5. Cool Hand Luke. This is supposed to be really great, right? I've never seen it. I guess I should.

6. Invasion of the Body Snatchers. So the other day, one of my colleagues was saying how he liked this one; I've never seen it that I can recall.

7. Deliverance. I'm actually interested but seem to have never had occasion to watch this one.

8. The Return of Spinal Tap. OK, I've seen This is Spinal Tap, but I've somehow missed The Return of.

9. Children of Men. I'm kinda interested, as it's based on a novel by P.D. James, but then again, it looks depressing. According to my brother, it's "pre post apocalyptic." I'm not sure what that even means.

10. Apocalypto: This is the Mel Gibson one about the fall of the Mayans. It think it sounds interesting, but then I hear that it's super gory, and I don't think I can deal with that.

11. The entire Nightmare on Elm Street and Halloween franchise. Does this require comment?

12. Talladega Nights. Will Ferrell just kills me. Seriously. But I've not seen this one.

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13. Mr. and Mrs. Smith. I really dislike Brad, and I don't like Angelina much better. And knowing that they're making this movie while committing adultery on the side really turns me off.

Fun Blog

One of my favorite blogs is "A Dress A Day." I love the blogger's style, and I often enjoy her writing. Recently I particularly enjoyed her post titled "I See London, I See France." I think it's lots of fun, if any of you are looking for a good, quick read.

Life is Soooooooooooooo Unfair

So, here's how I know life is ridiculously unfair.  I'm watching last night's episode of Dr. 90210, which I'd DVRd.  So there's this really attractive 33 year old woman, and she wants a "Brazilian butt augumentation."  And that's a little unfair, right, when so many of us are wanting to reduce our backsides, she's wanting to go under general anesthesia to get MORE junk in the trunk.  Anyway, the procedure involves sucking fat out of one part of the individual's body and injecting it into her butt.  And that right there seems a little unfair, that she gets to elect to reallocate her fat.  But here's the real kicker:  she goes in for a consultation, and the surgeon tells her she doesn't have enough body fat for him to harvest, so she has to gain at least 10 pounds before the procedure.  So the woman gets to totally eat all kinds of crap in order to gain fat in her abs so that the doctor then has something to work with.  This seems just wrong that she gets the fun of gaining a full 15 pounds just so that she can have the excess fat sucked out and moved to her behind.  Life is so unfair.