Confession: I Heart Dog the Bounty Hunter

Ok, I'm just going to come out about this. And my family already knows. Seriously. I think that Dog the Bounty Hunter is Kick-Ass. Really. And for a while I was afraid to admit it, you know? It's like not wanting people to know that you read the Weekly World News (aka "The Paper"), but I've decided that I should be open about it and confess that I think that Duane "Dog" Chapman is a wonderful human being. Really. He's turned his life around, after doing time. But what I really love about Dog and his "posse" is how they are all tough when they go out on a bounty. They talk really big about how they are gonna kick ass and bring the guy to justice. But (unless the guy is beating on women), Dog and Tim and Leland and the rest turn out to be big softies. They get these addicts and sit them down and try to actually help them. Really, I believe that the Dog, despite appearances to the contrary is really this kind, caring guy. So here's a good Dogism: "This is the second chance business and we are good at it because we are second chance people." And that's what I love about Dog; he's really so about helping people. And I really believe that he connects with his clients because he's been there. Plus, I love it when he talks about being the vacuum salesman. I think he's super smart. And I'm protesting his recent arrest, because really, didn't he do us all a favor by chasing down the so-called Max Factor Heir? Isn't the world a better place because Dog's in it? When I first saw his TV program on A&E (and A&E itself is a rant I'll save for another time. Suffice it to say that A&E is no longer the A&E I knew and loved.) . . .oh yeah, when I first saw his show on A&E, I thought it had camp value, and I'm down with that. A little camp every now and then can be a good thing. But Dog's beyond camp. He's the real thing. And so, let us not forget that "This Dog bites, but only when he has to."

Frustration

So one thing that really annoys me, really frustrates me is when students make appointments and then just don't bother to show up. I realize that things come up at the last minute, that people get sick, whatever, but it seems to me that the least one could do would be to phone or even e-mail to say, "Sorry, I won't be able to make it after all."

Today, for example, my only class is 8:00-9:15, which is really quite a nice schedule. I have one advisee who's been saying for the last two weeks that he really needs to see me. So I made an appointment to see him at 10:30, just before his 11:00 class. Now, I know from past experience that he's kinda flakey, and all morning, I had a creeping suspiscion that he (we'll call him "A), that A wouldn't show up. And I was tired this morning. After class, all I really wanted to do was to go home and rest. I hadn't slept well the night before, and I knew I'd have to be back at work at 3:30 and would have to stay until into the evening for a long meeting. So I really just wanted to go home, get some breakfast, and rest. Of course, I didn't. I waited around for A. I didn't get much work done, but I was here. And guess what--A didn't show up. No phone call, no explanation, nothing. He just didn't show up.

This kind of thing really annoys and frustrates me. I'm just trying to do my job. And I just want to do a good job of everything I do. And I really care about my students, don't mind taking time for them. But I guess that I expect a level of maturity that they just haven't reached.

Note to self: in the future, be more realistic in your expectations.

Weighing In on House

OK, I'm at work, pretending to work, which I'm pretty good at, but not really getting much done. And I realized that what I really want to do is to weigh in on last week's season premier of House, M.D. And I know that I've already had this conversation with at least one person, but I feel like I need to get this on record or something.

So here's your warning: PLOT SPOILER. STOP READING NOW IF YOU DON'T WANT TO HEAR ABOUT LAST WEEK'S EPISODE.

First, I don't necessarily watch a lot of television, with the exception of Law and Order, which in its various incarnations seems to be on all the time. But I really, really love House, or I did until last week. In fact, tonight, I'm planning to go to a poetry reading at 7:00, but I'm really tempted to skip it so that I don't miss the new House, and this is unlike me--to plan my schedule, my social life around TV.

Second, Hugh Laurie is, in my estimation, absolutely brilliant. And I LOVED him in Jeeves and Wooster; I cannot recommend it highly enough. But his role in House, so utterly different from Bertie Wooster, proves that Laurie is this brilliant, wonderful actor.

All that said, I was kinda disappointed in last week's season premier episode. I have to say that last season's finale was kinda dumb. So House is shot by the crazed ex-patient guy, right? And he hallucinates. I found it all to be a let-down; it just wasn't what I'd come to expect. (Side note: don't get me started on the thin, beautiful women that work with House--so unrealistic. And has anyone noticed that Cuddy's necklines get lower and lower? Oh wait, House himself commented on that, didn't he?) So in the premier, House is back to work, thinks he's fully recovered. And, apparently, his leg is fine; he's running several miled each day. He's also off of the Vicodin. And of course, without the Vicodin, he's bored, not himself, engaging with the world in a new kind of way. There was just something wrong about it. And so, at the end of the episode, his leg starts bothering him again, and he writes himself a perscription (on Wilson's pad????) for Vicodin. I don't know. There's just something depressing about it all. I mean, as a viewer, I guess that I don't really want House to recover and be healthy and well-adjusted. That wouldn't be any fun. But to see a partial (and not very believable) recovery only to witness his spiral back into pain, cynicism, and Vicodin just isn't very satisfying either.

Tonight's episode promises to be about a boy who claims to have been abducted by aliens. This seems like a weird stretch. I'm expecting Fox Mulder to show up at any moment.

P.S. Love it when House rides a motorcycle.

Favorite Postmodern Moments

Since posting about Paul Anka this morning, I've been thinking about my favorite recent postmodern kind of moments. And I'll give you a list in a second. But does anyone remember that episode of The Simpsons where Moe redecorates his bar? So there are all these crazy things in the bar, like these weird rabbits running in those hamster wheel things attached to the ceiling. And there's a comment from one of the patrons (Moe's is suddenly really popular with the hip, young set) about it only being OK to watch football if one is being ironic. Anyway, Homer and Lenny and the other guy think it's kinda crazy, and they are like, "Moe, what's the deal?"

And Moe says, "It's Po Mo." Homer looks at Moe strangly, and Moe explains, "You know, postmodern." And when Homer still doesn't get it, Moe further explains, "Weird for the sake of weird."

So I really love that analysis. Anyway, here are some of my very favorite recent post modern developments:

1. Paul Anka singing Nirvana's "Smells Like Teen Spirit"

2. Audrey Hepburn dancing to "Back in Black" in the new Gap commercial

3. The Stinky Cheese Man and Other Fairly Stupid Tales (Ok, ok, that's not such a recent development, but it's too good to leave out)

4. Anything pertaining to "The Donald"

5. A book becoming a bestseller overnight, just because Oprah says it's worth reading

6. Oh, John Karr's being a big celebrity, all because he's obsessed with poor JonBenet; of course, we, the viewers, must be obsessed in our own way to have latched onto the story the way we have.

7. The mandate that requires Cookie Monster to cut back on the cookies and eat more fruits and veggies. This seems, to me, to be this weird, postmodern conflation of this pop icon with political correctness in a way that just makes no sense. Seriously. Does he now sing, "Celery, celery, celery starts with C"? This is beyond stupid in my book.

8. Having to refer to Prince as "The Artist, formerly known as Prince." Again, not such a recent development, but it's all so ridiculous that I think it's worth mentioning.

9. Does the development and coinage of the "prequel" count? Because isn't there something postmodern about the concept of a prequel, not something that comes before, but something that's constructed after the fact to be as though it came before. And really, not that this has any bearing on anything, but for the record, I kinda liked JarJar Binks.

10. Stephen Sondheim's Into the Woods. Ok, really, I think Into the Woods is really a brilliant show. And I'd say it represents the best of postmodernism, to my way of thinking. I really love the song that Little Red Ridinghood sings after her encounter with the Wolf, where she observes that "Nice is different than good" and that having all this new, adult knowledge is both wonderful "and a little bit not" so wonderful. I can't say enough about how smart I think Sondheim is in his analysis of the fairy tale. Any while the show is quite entertaining, I think it's powerful.

So, if all this stuff were in a novel by Thomas Pyncheon and hadn't actually happened, what would we say? Would we be like, "That's too crazy. That could never happen?"

What are your favorite postmodern moments?

9/11

I'm working very hard to ignore all this 9/11 rememberance stuff. I just don't want to get all emotionally caught up in it; I feel like I can't afford it right now. And besides, I remember. I remember that day, what I was doing, who I was with, how it felt, how I felt in the weeks following. And, I don't know, people die every day, often tragically, in accidents, murders, and they deserve as much rememberance, right? I don't know; although I'm quite studiously pretending it's just another day (and defiantly listening to The Proclaimers to emphasize it all), I feel terribly alone. Life is so short, and I want to live. And I don't want to spend the rest of it alone, I suppose, but each day, I'm more and more OK with the aloneness. And that's a good place to be, right?

Re Paul Anka and Guns N Roses

A couple of months ago, I heard an interview with Paul Anka on NPR. Apparently on his new album, he also does a cover of some Nirvana song (I think it was "Smells Like Teen Spirit," but I confess to being one of those geeks who thinks that all Nirvana songs sound alike. And I'm convinced that the only lyrics go like this: "Come as you are, as you are, however you are, just come like that. . .a mullato, an albino, a mosquito, my libido. . .come as you are, as you are. . ." and so on.)


So Saturday afternoon, we had this teriffic thunderstorm, and I spent nearly an hour listening to "November Rain" over and over and gazing out the window. And I know it's only September, but it all seemed appropriate somehow. And I spent way too much time creating a playlist in iTunes, a playlist titled "Sad, Broken Relationship Songs;" it's cheezy, I know. But it all felt like what I needed--cathartic somehow.

But maybe I do need the new Paul Anka, as someone suggests. And is it really true that Axl Rose is some crazy recluse who's spent, like, the last ten years working on the perfect album and that his old band mates won't work with him anymore because he's all obsessed with perfection and can't get along with any of them? Any information on Axl Rose would be appreciated.

Hair Bands

OK, I've been feeling nostalgic for the late 80s and especially the 90s. And that means that I'm listening, almost obsessively, to that kind of music. And while some of it (Guns N Roses) might be considered OK musically, I have to admit to enjoying really marginal pop music, notably Poision and Def Leppard. Bon Jovi is good too.

Singing A New Sgt. Pepper Song

And so last night, my favorite best friend called around 8:00, and since then, I'm singing a new song. She listened to all my worries and said all the right kinds of encouraging things. I think that you know you've found a really good friend when you tell her all the stupid decisions you've made, and she doesn't make you feel like you are so stupid after all. And so now, I keep thinking, "I get by with a little help from my friends."

I Love You, Billy Shears!

Ok, so I woke up with this crazy headache, which I was sure the perfect cup of coffee would cure. Incidentally, I've a new favorite coffee; it's Green Mountain Coffee Roaster's Harvard Blend. And I'm pretty sure it's only avaliable in New England. But it's this great blend of light and dark roasts, not too bitter. It, however, did not completely cure my headache. And the weird part about all of it is, I can't stop singing the Sgt. Pepper album to myself. You know it's like I'm walking down the hall, hearing "Woke up, fell outta bed, ran a comb across my head." And later: "We're Seargent Pepper's Lonely Hearts Club Band, we hope you will enjoy the show." And still later: "And it really doesn't matter if I'm wrong, I'm right, where I belong I'm right, where I belong. See the people standing there who disagree and never win and wonder why they don't get in my door."

And another thing. . .

I'm rather fed up with Sophocles. One can only read the Oedipus cycle so many times before losing interest. It's hard to teach as though one is excited about something that's become "old hat." Now, Hans Christian Andersen, on the other hand, is infinitely fascinating at the moment. And this morning, I made what I thought were interesting, maybe even brilliant (OK, so brilliant is probably over-stating it) observations about Andersen's "Little Mermaid" and "The Snowman." Oh yeah, so if you ever are assigned to read Andersen's "The Little Mermaid," don't think that you can skip the reading just because you've seen the Disney movie. WARNING PLOT SPOILER!!!! Andersen's story does not "end happily" with "Ariel" and the prince "getting married." Should you be asked to summarize the story, don't try to fake it by assuming that Andersen's story ends like the Disney movie. And, whatever you do, don't say to your instructor, "It really kinda pisses me off how Andersen messed with the Disney movie. I don't think he really has a right to take a good story and mess it up like that with a dumb ending." These are just helpful hints from my own observations and experiences.

And one more thing: if you are in a class in which Andersen is being discussed, please don't bring up all kinds of crazy urban myths surrounding the Disney movie. That's just not helpful to anyone.

A Quick Note on Susan Howatch

Recently, someone posted a comment regarding Susan Howatch, and I feel compelled to reply. I'm actually not sure who posted the comment, but I'm guessing it must have been L.C., because he's the only one I can think of that I know has read Howatch's novels. So I just wanted to throw out a couple of observations:

First, I agree that the Starbridge novels seemed to explore the masculine psyche, generally speaking. I would note that the one in which Venicia has the affair with the married guy (was he Argyle? I don't remember), seems to be an exception, in that Venicia's point of view is dealt with there, specifically her tendency to fall in love with an older, father figure type.

Second, I've read Wonder Worker and the next in the Nicholas Darrow series--was it High Flyer? And I agree that both seem to explore the woman's experience in a way that the Starbridge novels (and I think I've read all of those) just don't. But what I find really interesting is that mysticism and the miraculous are explored more deeply in Wonder Worker and High Flyer. Although Darrow's father certainly has mystical experiences in the Starbridge series, it seems that the mystical element of Christianity, the mystical possibilities are dealt with more directly in this series that deals more directly with the female experience. And I don't know what to make of this. Naturally, because I'm me, I automatically think of Margery Kempe and especially Julian of Norwich, where mystical Christianity becomes so much feminized (We all remember the whole Jesus as Mother argument, right?) So is there some necessary connection between the female experience of Christianity, feminism, and mysticism?

Third, I want to publicly acknowledge that Howatch is not "high" literature in any sense of the word. In fact, I think she's a pulpy romance writer who turns to Anglican settings and characters. That said, her novels are good reads, provide an interesting way into different brands of Anglicanism, but are, in the end, rather soap opera like. Forgive me if I'm making too much of Howatch. I just suddenly felt interested and thought I should sound off.

This Morning

Trying not to cry. . .trying not to cry. . .trying not to cry

Can I still be a feminist if. . .

I decide to take up papercrafts?

I make a really kick-ass apple pie?

I think that crocheting is a lot more exciting than activism, marching for peace, or recycling?

I still think that stay-at-home moms are the biggest heroes in the world?

I love C.S. Lewis and J.R.R. Tolkien?

I'm in love with Inspector Morse?

I wear glittery eye-shadow?

I actually WANT to live in traditional gender roles, at least some of them?

I have to call my dad every time I have a problem with my car or my yard?

I worry about my weight, about looking "interesting," about all my grey hair?

pink is my favourite colour?

I cry every time I watch You've Got Mail, mostly because I don't have any interesting "mail"?

although I say I want a career, I secretly envy all my friends with toddlers and houses in the suburbs?

I still believe that an intimate relationship with a man will necessarily make my life more fulfilling?

It's not quite 8:00 am, and I'm at work. And class starts at 8:00, and thank goodness I can teach this one with only a tiny sliver of brains, because most of my energy this morning is taken up by simply trying not to cry.

Father Brown and "Only Connect:" This One's For Dolce Carina

Ok, so I'm reading Chesterton's Father Brown stories. And I'm all super excited about it for any number of reasons. But what I'm noticing most right now is that everything I'm reading (Chesterton and everything else!) is reminding me of all kinds of other stuff I've already read. It's like it's all connected, and knowledge, books, reading, thinking, all of it seems to become this matrix in which to live and work and think and love, you know? And this is good, right, because we know that insanity is compartmentalizing our lives, trying to separate the professional from the personal, the work from the reward. And Father Brown, who so reminds me of C.S. Lewis, is both the work and the reward right now. And this makes me happy.

And C.S. Lewis read and liked and appreciated Chesterton's work. But Father Brown himself says things that Lewis's characters, maybe even Lewis himself, would have said: "Reason and justice grip the remotest and loneliest star. Look at those stars. Don't they look as the they were single diamonds and sapphires? Well, you can imagine any mad botany or geology you please. Think of forests of adamant with leaves of brilliants. Think the moon is a blue moon, a single elephantine sapphire. But don't fancy that all that frantic astronomy would make the smallest difference to the reason and justice of conduct. One plains of opal, under cliffs cut out of pears, you would still find a notice-board, 'Thou shalt not steal.'" This could totally be Lewis's Ransom; in fact, this very idea is maybe what Lewis's entire Space Trilogy is really about.

But Lewis, Tolkien, now Chesterton, even Inspector Morse (had a date with Morse last night), all these these writers, these characters, they seem to be doing the same kind of thing somehow, not just with morals and Christianity, but with cultural identity, what it means to be English, what it means to have a medieval cultural heritage. So here I am, right back at medievalism, right back at my dissertation. And it all makes sense. And suddenly the dissertation itself feels like more than just a hoop to jump through, more than just an exercise. It's become a foundation, a foundation to do and think other kinds of things. It's led to, or maybe it's created, this nexus, this matrix. And now I can say for sure that I'm a better person for having finished it.

So I hope that at least some of this made sense. It's what I needed to write just now. The important thing, at least for the moment, is that I'm reading Chesterton, and Chesterton means something to me. And Chesterton will connect back to Lewis, to Tolkien, and someday will connect to Dalgleish, to Morse.

Peeps!

Ok, so my friend A. just gave me the coolest, best gift ever. It's for the Labor Day holiday, and guess what it is. Go ahead. . . guess. So, you want me to just tell you? Ok. . .wait for it. . .wait for it. . .it's a make your own Peeps kit. It includes "colored sugar packets" and a "surprise mold inside." Isn't that the greatest thing ever?

Livin' on California Time

So yesterday morning, I was teaching, and I tend to glance and my watch often. Because, you know, once I start talking, it's hard to stop. So I have to keep glancing at my notes, which by the way are usually meticulous because I'm me, and in my notes, I have everything all timed out. So I'm teaching, watching the minute hand, realizing that there's only about 10 minutes left in class, and there's still so much more I want to say about early printed works for children, because that's the topic for the day. And I notice that my watch is still set for West Coast time, three hours earlier than what it really is. Maybe I hadn't worn this watch since I'd been back from California. I don't know. In class, when I realized that my watch was set for California time, I nearly cried then and there! And maybe it's fitting, because I think about California time all the time anyway. I'll look at the clock and think, "Hey it's 9:30 here; that means it's 6:30 in California. Dad is probably on his way to McFarland to check out the grapes." Or, "Hey it's 10:30, so I should go to bed, but in California, everyone's finishing dinner and settling in for the evening." You know, that kind of thing. It's like having this sense of some weird sort of dual consciousness.

Saving My Sanity

I want to publically acknowledge that writing here and reading speckedmavens and the fidfam blogs are saving my sanity. Or at least, these things are making significan contributions. I suppose I shouldn't discount yoga, reading Proverbs, or tea.

A Pirate's Life for Me!

Is it OK if I take up scrapbooking? I've avoided it on principle for so long, but lately, I've forgotten what the principle was. And hey, when you were a kid, did your mom tell you that you could remember the difference between "principle" and "principal" by remembering that the school principal is your pal? Did your mom say that too? Did she ever say, upon getting in the car in the evening, "Let's just try to have a quiet ride home"? Did yours say that too?