A Sense of Direction

So earlier today, I wrote that the planets were in alignment for me. But that's not really it. All of a sudden, I have this renewed sense of purpose about my life. I know what it is that I need to do next, and I feel a committment to what I am doing. And I've been thinking about why this is. It seems strange to me that suddenly, I seem to have more direction about my life and myself and what I need and want to do. But I don't think it's as sudden as it seems. I think as with many things in life (this is one of the great lessons of getting a PhD and writing my dissertation), we work and work and work at something and don't necessarily see the results of our labours (I'm using the British "u" simply out of a feeling of joy about the world and all things British), although the results are there just below the surface. And the results accumulate and accumulate below the surface for a while until the results break through. It's like writing, or like my writing process anyway. I work and work and work and feel as though nothing is getting done, although I'm putting in the time and effort. And then all of a sudden one day *pouf* I have twenty pages written. So it's like that, only in my personal life and my emotional life and my spiritual life. I've written about it in my journal and talked about it with some of you and prayed for direction and wisdom. And now *pouf*: I know where I need to go from here, and I think I know how to get there.

SIDE NOTE: Although I pray for wisdom, I don't claim that I've acctually attained that yet.

Anyway, so what I need to do next is this (well, this is a partial list anyway): I want to start seriously looking for a house. At any rate, I really would like to move from this apartment. So I'm going to contact a realtor this week. I've been browsing online, and there's not a lot in my price range, but I'm going to pursue it. My dad, who is wonderful, is planning to visit in about a month, when I have spring break, to look with me. I'm overwhelmed by the whole process, and I am so thankful that I have a father who is kind, intelligent, financially savy, and generally wonderful.

The other general thing I want to do is this: simply take better care of myself day to day. I'm eating healthier foods; I'm practicing yoga and meditation regularly; I'm praying more regularly; I'm reading my Bible and other devotional kinds of materials. I'm doing it, and the results are nearly immediate.

The third general goal I have is that I want to develop more satisfying personal relationships. This, for me, may be the more difficult of my goals, but it's something that I want to work at. And I do have a partial plan; I need to plan more fully.

I suppose that most of you are not really interested in all this, but I feel so joyful and peaceful and purposeful that I want to share it with the world. Wow! I'm becoming increasingly corny in my old age, and that's fine with me.